Konichiwa! Hope you’re all doing well.
I just noticed that I’ve never posted a review about the series that I love. Strange, huh?
The reason for this is that most of my favourites are on going and I do not like reviewing on going series. However, I cannot use that excuse for Seiyuu Ka!, which most of you know is one manga I never got over. So, I decided to do a Seiyuu ka related post, because it was about time I started off with newer styles other than reviewing…
* Please note that this post is not a review or a character analysis. Topics may be long, analytic and uninteresting, maybe.*
A brief sketch of Kudou-kun’s background and character
Kudou Senri is the son of a famous actress. When he was younger, he was brought up learning how to act.
However, due to the way his mother taught him, he felt that his real feelings where an act too. He always thanked his friends for ‘acting as his friend’ and never realized that they where his true feelings of gratitude and love.
This makes him become a sort of loner who hides behind an act- or so he thinks.
When Hime (female lead) first meets him, she, like most others thinks of him as an arrogant popular voice actor.
Later on, as bits of his past come back, it is Hime who helps him ‘find’ himself.
What is depression and loss of identity?
Depression (major depressive disorder) is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how you feel, the way you think and how you act. Depression causes feelings of sadness and/or a loss of interest in activities once enjoyed. It can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems and can decrease a person’s ability to function at work and at home.
In the manga, Kudou kun is described as someone who loses himself, i.e, he no longer knows which is an act and which is not.
While most of the readers, myself included, think of this as loss of identity, later on I realised it wasn’t something as simple as that.
Medical Definition of IDENTITY CRISIS/ LOSS OF IDENTITY: personal psychosocial conflict especially in adolescence that involves confusion about one’s social role and often a sense of loss of continuity to one’s personality
As I researched more about depression and identity crisis, I began to see that identity crisis was similar to depression.
Here are the symptoms of depression as listed by the APA,
- Feeling sad or having a depressed mood
- Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed
- Changes in appetite — weight loss or gain unrelated to dieting
- Trouble sleeping or sleeping too much
- Loss of energy or increased fatigue
- Increase in purposeless physical activity (e.g., hand-wringing or pacing) or slowed movements and speech (actions observable by others)
- Feeling worthless or guilty
- Difficulty thinking, concentrating or making decisions
- Thoughts of death or suicide
Now, while reading up on depression, I noticed some similarities between the two-
- Senri kun felt sad and depressed because he no longer understood who Senri Kudou was.
- Losing himself meant that he no longer knew what he liked or enjoyed, leading to a strange sense of disappointment and disinterest.
- He thought that he was worthless. He tried to protect others from him, by distancing himself. He felt guilty and worthless.
- He hid his love and friendship, because he questioned himself. He couldn’t make decisions.
Here we have four obviously overlapping symptoms of identity crisis and depression.
And I only compared them in relation to one person.
As I think about this at length , I’m more and more convinced that identity crisis itself is a symptom of depression.
Kudou kun and me
The above analysis leads us to one obvious conclusion. Kudou Senri faced depression and loss of identity.
This seemingly simple statement got me to face myself, for whom Senri is the most relatable character in all that I have read. I see myself in him and him in me.
Which brings me to the hardest question, If I relate to Senri so much, do I face depression?
My immediate initial response was, Ha. Depression? Me? No way! I’m just hypochondriac!
But, to be fair, I made a list for me the very same way I did for Kudou Senri.
- I have short spans of sadness. Like when I wrote Two Sides of The Same Coin, Just One Wing, In The Name of Love,etc. However, they must last for longer than two weeks to be classified as depression. And they don’t.
- I don’t have any particular afflictions to many of the things I used to do before. The only thing I cannot give up ever is my music. This I’ve mentioned many times before, haven’t I?
- I constantly open and close the loops of my ringed ear rings.
But, and hear me out, but, I do not feel guilty, do not show any of the other symptoms and even these three aren’t in a span long enough to be called depression.
So I put the blame on teenage hormones.
And lately, I’ve been in one of my moods. Where I get annoyed easily and shut down, refusing to speak in situations I would have been difficult to shut up….
I really want some lone time but a lot of friends, family and acquaintances have been dropping over. I don’t hate them, I like them really, but… it’s been a draining couple of weeks.
Was Kudou kun too showing the same ‘teenage hormone’ effect?
I don’t think so. His past had a major impact on his current attitude. His is actual depression.
Teenagers are the most succumb able to depression and identity crisis, but Kudou’s is a different case altogether.
Coping and curing
There are a number of things people can do to help reduce the symptoms of depression. For many people, regular exercise helps create positive feeling and improve mood. Getting enough quality sleep on a regular basis, eating a healthy diet and avoiding alcohol (a depressant) can also help reduce symptoms of depression.
Depression is a real illness and help is available. With proper diagnosis and treatment, the vast majority of people with depression will overcome it. If you are experiencing symptoms of depression, a first step is to see your family physician or psychiatrist. Talk about your concerns and request a thorough evaluation. This is a start to addressing mental health needs.
Hime was Kudou kun’s balm, his healer. She was a bright, cheerful and outgoing girl who had her own set of troubles and didn’t let it affect her.
They both helped each other and Hime essentially pulled Kudou out of depression.
Let’s put all the cards away
I have a theory. It’s that depression is a state of mind rather than a medical condition. Yes I know, I built up a whole post over thousand words and now I’m saying I don’t agree?!!
No. Well yes. But no.
See, what I think is that depression needs treatment, but it does not have to be medical. Or even from another person.
Songs could help you. You could help yourself. There are a million possibilities out there, but only if you recognise it fast.
First off, there’s nothing wrong with being depressed. Being depressed does NOT and WILL not mean that you’re weak.
By accepting and working, you are stronger than most others.(I’m thinking about an incredible person called Yoongi as I write this.)
If you relate to the symptoms, you might not be depressed, but if you do feel that you are, Help Yourself. Talk to people close to you. Write anonymously if you don’t like talking about things about yourself to people you know.
But DO NOT IGNORE IT!
If you feel someone you know has depression, try to get it out of them. You don’t need to start to talk about it directly. Give them things to do, to think about and just silently support them.
It’s hard enough in the starting stages, but its harder later on. Better to get at it right in the beginning.
Let’s take a minute to understand him. Let’s take a lifetime to try and follow.
There are millions of things to learn from anyone and anything. Kudou a bit more than the rest.
Kudou fought depression without knowing what it was.
If we can spread a bit of awareness, it’d be great! Kudou, Kudos!
Anyway, hopefully, I didn’t bore you guys to sleep. If I did, I hope you had a good nap *winks*
As always, thank you for all the support, and apologies for the delays. *bows*